and   because  and .....

 you'll never get it.....<3 

i love you.....but that doesnt matter

wait, i know i love you but you dont get that do you??

so true...thats kinda how i feel.uuummm yeah! just because yo have been hurt before doesnt mean that the person you are with now will hurt you too. so let your feelings out...i do that a lot.wel duh! im a cheerleader what do you expect your my dork!! lOl!!

well as you can tell i have been very bored with nothing to do so i looked at icons. i need something to do!!!! im gonna go crazy!!

well yes today is my madre's birthday!! happy birthday mommy!! we went shoppimg this morning for her. she picked out what she wanted and w/e. but man today has been dull!! i have sat at home all day all by myself because i didnt want to go to me brothers baseball game. oh well!! tomorrow i am going to the ver so lovely manny's house!! i shall have fun. well here is an overview of my past week:

tuesday: staye home b/c i didnt feel like going to school and caus ei was watching my brother cause he didnt feel good. i slept for most of the day which was good cause i hadnt been sleepin much lately. jordan came over after school and we went swimming. that was fun! thats about it.wednesday: PSAT's!! how exciting. i took it last year but i forgot how stupid, lengthy, and boring that test was...pretty dumb! then went on with my day as usual. jordan came over and spent the night. so yeah we decided to make brownies from scratch cause we wanted to be cool like that. and they truned out yucky!! making them from the box is (1) easier (2) better tasteing. so here is some advice: stick to the half made stuff that you can buy at the store. the one where you just mix the dry ingredients with the wet ones then bake.....trust me!! thursday:  no school!!! woop woop!! and it was mine and manny' s 2 month anniversary!! so he came over after his football practice. so did kristin's b/f ((alexander)) and we al hung out and w/e. that was fun. later on i went to david's baseball practice and had the time of my life!! NOT!!! that was boring! friday: did nothing all day. then i went to alyssa's house and we hung out for a while. but unfortunately i had to leave!! (( good talks. and i know she probably did like what i bought her that one time!! and i wont do my jumps anymore!!! me and you have to go undie shopping again. the 3 musketteers have to hang out soon! adn al i have to say is EEEWWWWW!! im gonna barf my freekin brains out if it is true! i a definately not a good hair dresser person!! i think i will leave that job to your mom!! LMAO)) good time good times!! i love alyssa!! we have so much fun together!  so i went home and got ready for the game. thei left and went to Chamberlin. great school. we lost b/c our football team decided to suck...goodness the didnt even try. so we lost districts. oh well. then i went home and talked on the phone then i fell asleep.

but thats about it. later i will go to church. im out!! love ya! xOxO stephanie

the rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself;;

Cause theres a fine fucking line between love and hate
That we cross at least once of every goddamn day
And while you say you fucking love me you still push me away
You tie me at the wrists so that you cant be saved

. . .idk. . .well yeah great day!. . .))cough cough(( w/e. . . i have 2 parties this weekend that i am going to so i shall have a fun filled NO drama weekend. . .finally!!! um schools good i guess. . .report cards come out this week...aaaahhh!!! my grades are decent. passing so its good for now. cheerleading is a lot of fun....i am now a base so i am pleased. flying is fun but i dont think it is for me ya know. i do better when both my feet are on the ground ((except for tumbleing)). but we'll see how these last few games will go. then the season is over. but if i make competition team then i still get to cheer and all that. hopefully i do make it. after cheerleading is over i think i might do track. im still not sure because i also want to do a team for ROTC. im still thinking. this past weekend i spent the night at jordan's house. that was fun! she has to sleep over here again and soon cause we have too much fun together!! i love that girl. . .and yes jordan everything is cool now. no more problems. . .but i just thought id fill yall in on my wonderful life. bye

stephanie